A little world of L|nk

2003-09-18T02:17:00.000-07:00

hi people, welcome once again to this little corner of L|nk's world. here i am once again, feeling rather unhappy and probably upset... with a negative feeling writing this blog. if you have been following my blog you will know that i will only start to blog in my blog when there is either something great or something bad has happened to me. first of all i want to apologise to those of you who have been ...erm.. hhmm. probably anticipating for my next posting but yet waited in vain. i am sorry guys.. is not that i am cutting down on blogging.. i mean there isn't a need for me to cut down blogging cause is not a bad habit to me. i have been very busy and tired and stuffs like that. maybe some of you will think,"what's new man!? that stupid guy only complains that he is tired.. ALWAYS.. EVERYTIME"..yea yea.. i admit.. i am always tired and sleepy.. no drive in life.. yawnz.... WHY LIDAT AH ! hahaha.. ok let's be serious and focus on what is wrong with me and concentrate on the reasons why i am blogging today. ok here i go :
Been past 2-3 months. making a so-called summary of my life. a summary all about what has happen in these 2 months and erm.. just a brief account on it and how i feel about it. I am in a new environment, not just in church but as well as in school. new people in church, new faces, new classmates. out of all these, i thought i could start afresh and be a happier person and not fall back to the 75%games and 25% sleep person who i used to be... i really hope to change for the better to someone who is 30%games, 40%study and 30%sleep. this may not seem ideal to some of you but is my target to achieve at least just that. so far so i am doing pretty well and has cut games to as low as 15%-20% and increase the percentage more on studies and sleep. i see the improvment. i have made many new friends, exposed to more new things. however..... only today that i realised that i am NOT happy at all.why is that ?
many things have happened. i am in this new environment and this whole bunch of classmates are all from the B module. No problem to trigger them off to some topics and conversation created but till now i still don't feel that i belong to that class. not sure if they treat me as one or pobably just a passerby.. i can talk to them can laugh abit but i still don't feel the sense of belonging. most stuffs now very well-informed. however, there are a couple of friends in the class who are really nice to me. hereby i want to thank them. the names are: Jimmy, Christina, Michelle. These 3 people are the ones who gave me the deepest impression and have showered much love on me. I really appreciate their presence and their duty as a classmate to inform me and to love me as their classmates. hhmm.. probably i have to learn to be more indepedent myself. NAHZ. is different on being independent and having not much classmates in class. Back in the good old days, i have a bunch of lovely classmates and i love them alot. We had fun and excitement. Everyday i will look forward to meet them and have lessons with them. We also erm erm "chao"(skip) lessons together as a class !! hahaha those were the days man ! That was awesome and cool ! but now everything is so different.. Here i am in this class where is well-known for the fellowship of the scholars!!! hahah each of them are so smart and so powerful !! and here i am so powdery weak !! hahaah what am i dude? having to struggle hard in this semester but i have been working harder as compared to the last 2 years. It is never easy to survive along in a big deserted island as such but i am going to make it !! I am the modern day JACK SPARROW !!! I can survive through all these !! haha.. ok now to church
Church is always a wonderful dwelling place:) yes!! it is indeed. Now that i am in this new church and i am coping pretty well in it but just a bit of rough edges here and there.. not with the church members but i think i should able to cope with it. Is never easy to do something without the support of someone who you look forward to, giving you support but i starting to think likewise. this is because i view that i should look forward to God's support. yea!! hahaha but the people in church shows alot of their support to me and i really want to thank them too. especially my helpful lovely parnter-->jennifer. she is a wonderful girl and christian. She scolded me a few times for my weaknesses. through her i see alot of my weakness. She is a good leader with very strong cohensive power...scary !! hahaah kidding :P hehe..
haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway... don't feel accepted !! don't feel understood, don't feel care, don't feel loved......................... only felt it from God............. God told us that we should fellowship... but i think ...hhmm.. i no flair lah !!! FLARE AH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (personal joke).. :P kk gtg .. go do project ..alone.. Y LIDAT AH!!!

2003-08-28T18:51:00.000-07:00

hhmm... i seems to be someone who doesnt update my blog regulary.. i am so sorry folks.. but ahah usually when i update my blog, it will be when i am either very happy or either i am very sad... hheehe otherwise.. i will not post anything up here. so .. am i happy this morning or am i sad this morning?..well, not in a good shape.. many things have happen and i am having quite a few problems myself. is not that i do not share it out but just that .. all are small misunderstandings..
In my life right now, is very hard for me to identify the people around me who has the same burden and the same kind of vision... however i have a few very close people who share the same burden as me....well, there are also people who i view as they should understand my style and my burden and understandand feel for my situation, but they didnt.... some is becos they do not know what i am doing.. others is becos they do not understand why i am doing that...and start to think likewise of my vision....
i realise that it is never easy to be a good guy.. why is that so??? well, being a good guy, u please others but also causes others to have negative feelings for u.. maybe is my fault... i do not know how to balance my time well..... i am so sorry.... haiz...when it comes to such situations, no one is able to help.. jus pray that God willl open me a door or a way to bring me out of this tough situation. haiz... i cant be everywhere, if this is what you people expect of me.. then i am sorry............................. feeling very vexed now... i cant please everyone.. i know that that wasnt going to happen.. i can never please everyone!!!!! shit man..... but i always try hard to..but still i failed miserably..... i cant understand myself why is that i cant please everyone....at the same time, some of the people out there, dont understand or feel for my situation.....i am really scared..knowing that they dun see eye to eye with what i doing, surely causes pretty much conflicits...but my greatest fear is that ....i dun wish to grow tired of them always not been understanding of my position..........help me Lord..

2003-08-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

hey is been awhile since i last blog. the well-known self declared ---> super slacker !!! hahaha i have been slacking so much now.. haha cant believe i am getting "less pro". well, now that i have lesser gamer frenz i seldom play game as much. wayne is flying here and there. and johanan and charles are working. hhmm.. i think it is a good that i am playing less games now and i am able to spend more time to sleep. haha wad else!! com'on!! haha sleep is good ok !?!?!?! now i also starting to do tutorial and often attend lectures. this is a improvement as compared to my last 2 years in poly. DAMN i think i wasted it man !! haha though all the games and fun i had !! haha i think should be ok. using time to study and be good boy to play games till 3, 4 am in the morning haha.. i think i am a pro last time man !! dun need much sleep and dun study at all and managed to climb to where i am today .. though i failed my audit ( i think is the stupid bloody project) but i think i should go for a change NOW.. been spending time with Rev. Stephen and he taught me alot of stuffs. i have grown more and more spiritually under his and eric chong's guidance. i am very happy now :) i realised that if u abide in the ways of God, u will have no worries for God has planned the best for each and everyone of us. even at times it is rocky in life, some turns and obstacles, but if u dealt it with love and it will be over :) God will watch over us.... I LOVE U GOD..
now i am currently still working on my drums ahaha been training hard under the guidance of Rev. Stephen .. he is super good!!! ahaa he is like my idol hahah ou xia!!! and i am also picking up pool haha silly me!!! diaoz!!.. life has been pretty happy and i am living in peace and harmony with ppl around. i think i also need to watch my life of worship.. haha need some improvement to it.. haha still trying hard.. pray for me!! haha thanx..
alrite ciao ppl .. i gtg to do my tutorials now !! bb

2003-07-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

i always think that.. or shld i say i wanna be someone who live a simple life.. someone who's thinking is simple.. someone simple-minded.. to many ppl i seem to be somoene who is pretty heck care kind.. alot of things i juz dun wish to care abt or i simply choose not to care so that i wont create too many problems for myself.. but i was wrong.. appear as someone who heck care is juz a cover up.. i came to realise that i am someone who thinks alot.. in fact i discover this some moment ago.. but i choose not to believe it.. cuz it may appear that i look like a paranoid.. but the fact is still a fact.. i think a lot.. i am a thinker.. or perhaps.. i think too much.. and this makes some ppl pretty annoyed by me.. i think too much.. all i do daily is think think and think.. i think if everyone big and small things in life.. maybe that explains y my head is 65% white.. and is only at the back of my head.. many ppl and doctors say that i think too much.. use too much of my back brain and kill too many of my cells.. that is y i have white hair.. i choose not to believe this but there r juz too many ppl saying the same thing.. is it planned?? or is it real?? i dun care and i juz dun wish to think of that.. cuz it doesnt seem to be impt to me rite now.. is juz a image.. how i present myself out in front of others.. aiya.. so what if ppl thinks that i am ugly or i am not in for the current trend?? haha i wear what i like.. and i am what and who i am.. this is a fact.. and i am glad of one thing.. i like myself!! mhahahaz.. i always think that i have the upper hand in everything i do.. but i do learn this thru the hard way.. it is not always so.. cuz there r sure to be ppl who r much better than me in some areas.. this is becos these ppl really train hard for the things that they r good at.. haha while i keep telling myself i am born to be a talent in everyhting.. what crap!! pretty surprise of myself today.. i seldom write so much and i seldom like to express myself out the way it is now hahaa.. thanx everyone.. hey btw.. if u r unhappy with some of the things i said.. do voice them out :) i wanna hear it and i wanna improve myself.. dun worry i wont be mad till the extend of thinking to go and kill u juz becos u have some comments abt the things i write.. yawnz.. i being sleeping alot these days.. think that it is very good for my health but in the same time i think i become more and more slack.. even now as i am writing this i feel so sleepy.. yawnz.. going to do my tut after this and hopfully to complete it soon so that i can rest early tomolo.. gd nite everyone and hope that u have a nice rest..

2003-07-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

shirlene, i think u r rite.. this is my blog, i write what i wanna say abt the things i feel in my heart.. this is the place where i vent all my stuffs out.. who cares what others may think.. i feel much better now.. but i know this will not last long.. becos there r more things to come for me to worry abt.. more expectations to meet.. more downs i will face.. i am not a loser.. dun think u can step me under ur feet.. things juz dun seem rite and some ppl mistake me.. what i say and what i do.. ppl juz mistake it for something else.. no one knows what i am thinking.. no one understand me.. no one..... this is really depressing.. may receive some encouragment sometimes but in the end.. those who encourage me turn out to mistake me.. maybe there is really misunderstanding.. or maybe there is no mutual understanding at all?? things r changing.. so r ppl changing.. i am changing too.. am i chanigng for the better or the worse? i wonder.. i am going on the right path?? facing some much pressure in life but i kept reminding myself that nothing can bring me down as long as i dun give up.. but i am starting to give up.. on the verge to give up.. cuz it is too tiring for me.. i am too tired.. but i dun wish to give up.. is my passion of doing what i am doing now but.. my environment juz keep pressing me down.. constantly depressing me.. constantly making me down and down.. headache is what i face.. but i feel telling myself that i muz carry on till i see fruit from the tree.. when will that be?? hhmm.. as i am writing and i am thinking.. and i decided.. i will not give up.. although i am so tired.. this is juz the begining.. nothing can bring me down.. i am the pro.......

2003-07-22T07:01:00.000-07:00

i am tired.. realy tired of everything.. expecting too much from one will cuz him/her to stumble.. i have enough.. but i dun wish to blow at u all.. pls understand me.. no one seems to know that i care.. no one......... i care for u inmy heart but u dun see it.. as long as everyone out there dun see that i care for u all.. u all wont believe me.. actions is all u all demand.. humans fruad.. everyone wants ppl to carry out actions to show that you care for them.. jus caring for one in the heart is not enough.. or shld i say.. caring in the heart = dun care for the person at all..

views, ppl

2003-07-13T05:11:00.000-07:00

today is such a great day ppl....though there r ups and downs in one short day ....but i think i will still not hesitate myself in giving praise to the Lord.... today sermon was very very good.... my take for the sermon was on the part when rev stephen lim(my pastor) shared on the story of the orphan....
the story is about an young orphan adopted by a couple... the couple took him in and they sent him to sch. in sch, the orphan was always being snared. ppl usually laughed at him and look down on him becos he was an orphan... and so there was once where this poor boy got very angry and he shouted them at them," at least i was choosen to be someone else's child..but you all....your parents have no choice!!!"
i am glad i was one of God's choosen child... and this is somthing that i am very proud of.... :)

2003-06-30T18:56:00.000-07:00

yo ppl..alrite man!.. for those who do not know...well juz wanna break the news now hahah rather stupid...but yup.. i am over at st matthew now..really miss u guys over at wac!! and the kids too !! shit man !! joey is back..but i dun really have a chance to say hi to her....i am sorry little joey..really miss u alot.. hope that things are fine when u r in shanghai....lots of things in my head...lots of troubles in my life...but i am sure staying real cool with it...for God is in control in all things!!! not just me having problems but sure do have friends with problems too..dun worry pals!!! i am praying for you...
gotto realise that now is the block test for those who are in J2s wanna bless each and everyone of you....especially to those who i know or who are specially close to me...ppl like my dear....and you too huifen !! hahaha and also to shirlene...erm i mean this is for your bf not YOU!!(pls!!) haha kidding..and also ppl who i seldom talk to ...erm like kailun ...well..all thes best to all of you man !!!!!
things sure are so much different in st matt as compared to wac...but i am adapting very well there....think really i have a great gift with kids man... i made a new friend there and he is only 9!! haha i am ..erm 19?? going 20 ?? o man !!! hahaha 10 - 11 years older than him .. haha he is a nice boy .. haha the only who kept talking to me..he so sweet man ! haha still young and cool haha growing boi...haha bet he will be damn smart next time....maybe is becos i see him as someone who will be hanging out with me quite often...hhmm sure be influnece by me and become very smart.mhahaz..juz kidding.. haha going teach him the right principles of life man !..no more nonsence...i am growing much these few days and really relying alot on prayers...wanna be full dependent on God...still trying...eric chong (my mentor) gave me a book to read..hhmm going to complete by this mth!!! haha aarrgghh!! yeah that is wad i will be doing these few days .. do pray for me man ... hope God continue to review himself to me so real... o boy ..am i excited ...haha take care guys out there... i will be praying for you all too!!
God bless u all !!! AMEN

2003-06-12T08:45:00.000-07:00

yawnz.... so tired.. aahah too much AND 1 today...being skipping on blogs...very lazy to log in and type in here hahaha .. by the time i come home.. bath...eat late dinner...then zzz ...wake up ...lunch cum breakfast....cartoons on AXN...some games..then bball or go out down town for pool or shopping!?!?! haha life is so routine....everyday is the same thing..so boring .. haha yawnz.. i am tired of so many things.. haha bored !!!! hahahaha pls eeveryone..GET A LIFE MAN!!!!
yawnz...going to zzz soon ...will be working then either out for sushi dinner with mel mel or bball again man hahahaa.. AND 1 rulz..(haiz..i know i am irritating lol)

2003-06-02T21:13:00.000-07:00

hi everyone.. i feeling much better now...though there r still some confusion here and there...but i will be leaving it all to God for He will make a way for me :) hehee

2003-06-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

i feel horrbile inside...really horrible inside..but yet one the other hand..i appear so strong in front of everyone...as if nth has really happen...i feel like crying.. God weeps..and so it is alrite for us to weep too..thru my weaknesses and my most fragile state of mind currently... i wish that i am able to stand for others.. be able to support and encourage others too.......giving them my blessings and hoping that they will in turn be able to stand on their own feet and also be able to stand for others too and support others..also for mel mel...know that i am not alone in my situation for there r also others who is with me...thank you my dear mel, without ur support i dun think i will be able to be so strong...i love u !!!! hhm..know that i am in a tough time but also i know that u r too.. stuck in the middle of nowhere..seems like u r in between the railway tracks of two approaching mrt trains from different directions. sorry dear.. i know that it is not easy for u too.....though i am worried for u but u always appear so strong but yet u r jus so weak in ur heart and spirit. lets meet up and pray together...worship the Lord...is time we seek refuge in Him...

Lord,
You know that we love You, for You r our Father and our God, our Almighty Savior and our consuellor....
You know of everything in this world and nothing can be kept away from your knowledge. nothing in this world that we can hide from You...
this lyric is from You to me.....thank you Lord.

I have a maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hand
Chorus
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
I have a Father
He calls me his own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go
Chorus
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
i love You, Lord...
AMEN

p.s. i love u ppl so much!!!

2003-05-26T11:33:00.000-07:00

i cant sleep!!! cant keep myself thinking of the youth and those wonderful lovely kids in sunday school....i am going to miss them so much .. i am pouring all out in this blog cuz i know i couldnt take this anymore. dunno who to turn to share this out so i decided to put it in my blog...tears were hot and boliing at the rim of my eye....anytime they will row down and clearing all the dust and dirt on my face.....i am so fill with grief now..and who knows exactly how i feel?? God..and also those who been thru the same thing as me...
i love the youth so much that i hardly would bear to depart from them...also..all the kids in P1 - P6..the toddlers...i love them all...to Grace, i am sorry..i really hope to be able to let u bully me next year when u r P1 but now i dun think so..i really wanna apologise to u.
i dunno wad to say or to even describe the feeling i have. i know this is part of growing and a learning process.. sometimes i really hope things will be remain peaceful and the same forever.but the fact is that IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN ON EARTH!!! sorry that i have poured out so much cuz i think i have the freedom to pour my cries out...pls allow me to have peace...well i do hope the new begining will be good for me..for the Lord plans what is best for us...i give u praise O Lord...
but i still wanna thank God for each and everyone who He placed in my life...u all made up part of my life!!! w/o u all..there will not be the eric tan here today!! thank u to all..and thank u..sepcially to God

2003-05-26T11:13:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THE YOUTH!!!!!

2003-05-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

some small story i wanna share with everyone today...it is lengthy..but i believe it is a interesting story..all thanx fo huifen...the credit goes to u man!!! :D here's the story:

"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ." The
atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks
one of his new students to stand.
"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"
"Yes sir," the student says.
"So you believe in God?"
"Absolutely."
"Is God good?"
"Sure! God's good."
"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"
"Yes."
"Are you good or evil?"
"The Bible says I'm evil."
The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment.
'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over
here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help them? Would >you try?"
"Yes sir, I would."
"So you're good...!"
"I wouldn't say that."
"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He doesn't, does he?
My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him.
How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"
The student remains silent.
"No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

"Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?"
"Er... Yes," the student says.
"Is Satan good?"
The student doesn't hesitate on this one. "No."
Then where does Satan come from?"
The student falters. "From... God..."
That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?"
"Yes, sir."
"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?"
"Yes."
"So who created evil?"
Again, the student has no answer.
"Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness. All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?"
The student squirms on his feet. "Yes."
"So who created them?"
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question, "Who created them? "
There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

"Tell me," he continues. "Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?
The student's voice betrays him and cracks. "Yes, professor. I do."
The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and bserve the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?"
"No sir. I've never seen Him."
"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"
"No, sir. I have not."
"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus?
Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter.
"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."
Yet you still believe in him?"
"Yes."
"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
"Nothing," the student replies. "I only have my faith."
"Yes, faith," the professor repeats. "And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith."

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.
"Professor, is there such thing as heat?"
"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."
"And is there such a thing as cold?"
"Yes, son, there's cold too."
"No sir, there isn't."
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
"You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'.
We can hit 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, >but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than -458 degrees.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat.
We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy.
Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

"What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?"
"Yes," the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night if it isn't darkness?"
"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something.
You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light... but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, Darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester.

"So what point are you making, young man?"
"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with and so your conclusion must also be flawed."
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. "Flawed?
Can you explain how?"
"You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains.
"You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God.
You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.

Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it, just as evil is the absence of good.

Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?"
"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do."
"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going.
A very good semester indeed.
"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir?
Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?"

The class is in uproar.
The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.
"To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean?"
The student looks around the room.
"Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?"
The class breaks out into laughter.
"Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain?
No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir.
So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?"
Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable. Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers.
"I guess you'll have to take them on faith."

..::The End::..

2003-05-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

hi everyone is me again...not a very frequent rider in blogs but i do try to make an effort to write...hehe do forgive me if u entered and see no blogs updated. feeling abit moody these few days...troubled by some issues or another...hhmm but dun worry folks i still doing fine and praying hard the God will watch thru me the storm that is apporaching....i prayed hard that i will be filled with faith..unlike those who r in the boat with Jesus and no faith to see that the sea will be calmed..i wanna to have that faith knowing that the approaching storm is nothing for the Lord will lead me to green pasture.....where it is calm and everything is in control.. the Lord will watch over me.. but i need faith..
O God....praise u to be to grant me extra faith in the things i do......Amen

2003-05-18T09:02:00.000-07:00

for those who comes to my blog often..i really thanx u and appreciate that very effort of clicking ur mouse and pointing to the urls or links u have to reach this blog. being bothered by some churchy stuffs but i think is time that i shall put it to an end. think my decision need to be quick and need to be certain and firm...i have much decide what i wanna do in the near furture....i am going for "further studies"dun worry . wadever it may be i will still be around for prayer needs ;) in terms of needing ppl to pray for me and also to pray for others too hehhehee.....

2003-05-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

hihi sorry to all man!!!.. really sorry ..actually i was having exams last week ..so i didnt come back to check the blog...was studying like mad!! PLS dun be like me....well i feel gulity too.. i didnt study the whole semester and hoping to be able to complete everyhting juz the day before the exams....havng zero knowledge of wad i am going to read......wasting all my semester time!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO GOOD!!! dun be like me...PLS!!!! thanx....phew...hahah ok ..to all who r having exam..i will be praying for u ..dun worry ok :) hhe God will be watching over u ..yup peixuan .. i am back once again ..and sorry fen.....really sorry :(
but dun worry folks!! once again....L|nk is back with his little world that he wanna share with everyone out there!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) hehe..

2003-04-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

hey its been great these few days...how abt u guys man ?? hope taht everyone out there r fine!!! i really love everyone out there... God has been talking and speaking to me these few days..i have been feeling that He wanna talk to me but i am always the one who has been avoding Him... i am sorry God....i know that i am scare of God giving me things to do. cuz i scared that i am not up to it. that is the reason y i have been avoiding Him. but everytime when i have a problem, i will turn back to Him and request from Him... this is no good at all !!! He loved me that is y He has been watching me and protecting me..He is my greatest Father and my greatest Saviour.. i loved Him alot but i am juz too selfish. all i care is for myself. i only want benefits but ignoring the plans He has for me....well ignoring is a excuse. scare that i am not up to it is the reason...or maybe i am juz being lazy to take up responsibilities. so many confusions here and there but the Lord is still gracious to provide me..... and i think it is time i shld do something for Him too... teach me and guide me God and use me as Your instrument.... i believe in You for You are the God of impossible. nothing is impossible for You...praise You, Lord......Halleujah !!!
this is a small part of my life that i wanna share it with all of u..dun be afraid to try anything. DONT BURY YOUR TALENTS.. this is wad i have learnt. you u bury it and u missed the chance or the oppurtunity...that is it...u might not be able to get it again...is better that you do something and u failed it or success in it than you didnt even try it or give in your best shot but just give up.....

2003-04-24T07:54:00.000-07:00
hi people...juz for ur info, i will be back online as in blogging and updating my blog quite often liao ... hehe.. dunno why but i wanna share with everyone of u the wonders that i have been experencing in my life. hhmm life have great wonders daily, but juz whether u see it or not. it may take a little more effort for u to sense it or for u to see it...but it is always with u every second of ur life :)
so see ya guys around....take care always and may God bless u!!!

2003-04-21T08:33:00.000-07:00
wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! think i am not be in here for the past 4 mths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really sorry to all !!! so sorry ..
rehiz!! hehehe ..well life been really great..i thank you for the comments i have recived...thank for the compliment for my neatness of the blog. and also to stranger..hhmm u r??? sorry lol...The exodus?? hhmm i have a few copies of wad happen after our hero met the dad..but i reformatted my com and i lost it all..so i became very slacked....went to my Godpa's church last sunday and it was great and here is somehting that i wanna share with everyone:

The Three Trees

Once upon a mountain top, three little trees stood and dreamed of what they wanted to become when they grew up.

The first little tree looked up at the stars and said: "I want to hold treasure. I want to be covered with gold and filled with precious stones. I'll be the most beautiful treasure chest in the world!".

The second little tree looked out at the small stream trickling by on its way to the ocean. "I want to be traveling mighty waters and carrying powerful kings. I'll be the strongest ship in the world!".

The third little tree looked down into the valley below where busy men and women worked in a busy town. "I don't want to leave the mountain top at all. I want to grow so tall that when people stop to look at me, they'll raise their eyes to heaven and think of God. I will be the tallest tree in the world."

Years passed. The rain came, the sun shone, and the little trees grew tall. One day three woodcutters climbed the mountain.

The first woodcutter looked at the first tree and said, "This tree is beautiful. It is perfect for me." With a swoop of his shining axe, the first tree fell. "Now I shall be made into a beautiful chest, I shall hold wonderful treasure!", the first tree said.

The second woodcutter looked at the second tree and said, "This tree is strong. It is perfect for me." With a swoop of his shining axe, the second tree fell. "Now I shall sail mighty waters!" thought the second tree. "I shall be a strong ship for mighty kings!"

The third tree felt her heart sink when the last woodcutter looked her way. She stood straight and tall and pointed bravely to heaven. But the woodcutter never even looked up. "Any kind of tree will do for me" he muttered. With a swoop of his shining axe, the third tree fell.

The first tree rejoiced when the woodcutter brought her to a carpenter's shop. But the carpenter fashioned the tree into a feedbox for the animals. The once beautiful tree was not covered with gold, and not filled with treasure. She was coated with saw dust and filled with hay for hungry farm animals.

The second tree smiled when the woodcuter took her to a shipyard, but no mighty sailing ship was made that day. Instead the once strong tree was hammered and sawed into a simple fishing boat. She was too small and too weak to sail to an ocean, or even a river, instead she was taken to a little lake.

The third tree was confused when the woodcutter cut her into strong beams and left her in a lumberyard. "What happened?" the once tall tree wondered. "All I ever wanted was to stay on the mountain top and point to God..."

Many many days and nights passed. The three trees nearly forgot their dreams.

But, one night, a golden starlight poured over the first tree as a young woman placed her newborn baby in the feedbox. "I wish I could make a cradle for him.", her husband whispered. The mother squeezed his hand and smiled as the starlight shone on the smooth and sturdy wood. "This manger is beautiful." she said. And suddenly the first tree knew he was holding the greatest treasure in the world.

One evening a tired traveler and his friends crowded into the old fishing boat. The traveler fell asleep as the second tree quietly sailed out into the lake. Soon a thundering and thrashing storm arose. The little tree shuddered. She knew that she did not have the strength to carry so many passengers safely through with the wind and the rain. The tired man awakened. He stood up, stretched out his hand, and said, "Peace." The storm stopped as quickly as it had begun. And suddenly the second tree knew he was carrying the King of heaven and earth.

One Friday morning, the third tree was startled when her beams were yanked from the forgotten woodpile. She flinched as she was carried through an angry jeering crowd. She shuddered when soldiers nailed a man's hands to her. She felt ugly and harsh and cruel.

But, on Sunday morning, when the sun rose and the earth trembled with joy beneath her, the third tree knew that God's love had changed everything. It had made the third tree strong. And everytime people thought of the third tree, they would think of God. That was better than being the tallest tree in the world

2002-12-30T05:22:00.000-08:00
today i learnt a very impt lesson. it all started when i wasn't feeling well this morning. my stomache feel so bloated and i feel like vommiting. was having fever too. kinda feeliing very terrible. mel was doing her work and we planned to meet up later in the evening. when it was close to evening i felt much better. went for a bath and drank some water and off i go to meet her. but along the way there, that horrible feeling struck back! i felt very uncomfortable. when i saw mel i cldnt hide this terrible feeling from her. i was walking very slowly and i am feeling weak. is obvious that i wasnt feeling well. this spoiled her mood. we were both bored and there isnt much for us to do. i asked her if she wanna go to the arcade or play bball but she didnt wanna do anything. i was angry with her but i tried my best to keep my cool. i was abiding to her but she dont see that at all. in the end she decided to send me home. we parted from CCK lrt station. she was angry and she walked off. mel is someone who likes surprises and hates to be bored. however, at that very moment i wasnt in the best condition to do anything of such. after that we called and say that she is very bored. but i cldnt do anything at all. sad and depress was wad i feel. in the end she went out, i am not sure where did she go too.

i called her many many times and sms her alot of times but yet she reply any. i was very worried for her but i dont think she knows it or maybe she knows that i am worried but she did it delibrately, and pretended to be ignorant? the thing that i wanna share with everyone is this: God loves us and He cares so much for us. i understand how it feels to see someone close to u juz walk away and dun really care wad u feel. God, although He knows where we r heading but the wrong direction. casuing Him to be worrying for us. but we dun really care. we r lost in the darkness and we heads towards sin. at that very moment, juz before we sin, God knows. He tries to reach us but we ignore "His calls or His sms". God worries and cares for us when we r drifting away from Him juz like when mel left without telling me where she is heading.

juz wanna take this time to tell everyone that God is actually there waiting for us. He is always there trying to call us and sms us, hoping we will reply Him and listen to wad He wanna say to us. i urgue everyone not to ignore Him but keep close to Him. He cares for us and He loves us alot.....God bless u all!!!

2002-12-08T08:24:00.000-08:00
is really been a great long time since i last blog. well has always been good days daily, everyday.... for it is created for me by God. wonderful sermon this morning...hhmmm well to really think abt it, i think that everyday has been very wonderful to me. although there r ups and there r downs, but is always covered with God's love and God's grace. learnt something really important today. learnt the meaning of being generous. we muz also be generous in the things we do daily...in terms of giving tiding to the Lord to the way we do things and the way we treat others. dun be selffish. God's abundance blessing is always upon us and so we shld also go and reach out to others to bless others and also in return giving blessing to the Lord.
somtimes in life ppl tend to steal from God. suppose to give 10% but only willing to give 2%. is so selffish. there r also some others, i call them petty. gets angry easliy without thinking of the feelings of those arnd them. well sometimes if we happen to receive megative things, dun be too quick to be angry or too quick to react to it. listen and hear more and think before making any unnecessarily moves that may cuz relationship to be broken. even when we do things for someone or for God. it is not necessary to do it juz for show or to do it for others to see. be truthful in the things we do. always remember we do things using heart not juz thru the actions. well, even if we have done things tt r good but others dun appreciate the things tt u r doing,(maybe they r ignorant), we dun blame him/her. we ought to be generous to it and take it with grace. there r times when hurting words happen to pass or even really cruel remarks but they r juz in the very few secs of anger. be generous and accept it..forgive and forget. be patience and be nice. for God says love ur enemies as muz as u love urself. be generous to love them. they will know our pain and our efforts someday. even if they do not know, it is ok..for God sees it and He honor u for that. to be able to complete the tough race on earth and knowing tt we can join Him at the end of the race, feasting, is indeed a great consolation we receive.............juz wanna thank the Lord for the things He has done in our lives.....

2002-11-17T08:07:00.000-08:00
once again God created such a wonderful day today.....had a very very good sermon this morning and a wonderful bible study in the afternoon.

2002-11-16T09:07:00.000-08:00
great day today!!! went out with my parents this morning for breakfast and brought my mum to the hospital for check up. hhmm hope she is alrite...God will watch over her...was waiting woth my mum...while my dad brought my brother to Novena square and shop arnd!! sounds kinda farnie..so i called my dad and called him to come over to the hospital and wait with my mum..can see that my mum hope that he is here rather than me...hahahha sob sob..(kidding) hehe so me and myy dad switched roles....he waited with my mum and i brought my brother to orchard to shop!! hehe...meet up melissa together with my brother we played games at the arcade..haha KOF!! yeah!! and also gun bullets..well i sux in gun games..hehe at least i am better than my brother ( well there isnt much that i can be proud of eerrmm...hehe ) ..after that my parents came over and they left with my brother to bugis to do their own shopping..while me and melissa went arnd orchard...shopping...sounds farnie ya??
after we broke up arnd dec last yr...we nv meet up and go out together....we seldom chat...hehe some kinda like avoiding one another. but today, really glad to meet her and walk arnd the alomst the whole central part of singapore!!! we went from somerset walk till far east (orchard) then back to Plaza Sing...then from there we WALK to suntec....hahah really amazed by the distance we covered today...haha and that is not all..we from suntec go to marina square then to ...ermm..esplande...after that went to see merlion.....had dinner over there...phew...chance to rest..kidding..WALk again to boat quay then from there we took a bus home..kinda tired..well guess that it was a good excerise fror digestion after my heavy supper at 1 am last nite..heheh...had a very kewl day out together.....
well, i am also looking forward to go out with the rest of u out there!! really wanna fellowship with u all and to bulid stronger rapport between u and me....do give me a chance (sounds like i am begging..o well thick skin? haha i know ..bleahz :P ) heheeh....do call me....take care gtg nitez

2002-11-12T08:54:00.000-08:00
is hard for ppl to understand what is love and what is care. and is also hard for ppl to see the difference of "in a family" and "being in a family". if there is love, care is also in it. but when care is present, love is not necessary to be present. well all i can see is alot of care with no love in it. on the other hand, at the other side of my life, i feel so loved and care is in it. all of us have differnt frenz and we normally grouped them into differnt categories unknowingly. well it happens to me. there are many different groups of ppl in my life. and some grps i feel love and care is in it. some i can only feel the care but cant feel love in it. so are you someone who feel love and care in it or just feel care alone?
the difference of "in a family" and "being in a family" is that one can be physically in the family but is not playing his/her roles as a family member. whereas "being in a family" means that he/she is physically in the family and also doing each of his/her own part for the family so that the family can grow. what abt you? which is you. "in a family" or "being in a family" ??

2002-11-06T20:27:00.000-08:00
is a scary feeling when you dont think you are who you are. behaving like the one whom you use to be. tend to loose yourself. is so hard to control it or overcome it. what is really wrong? is something you dont even know. nightmare crowns you at night. fear flows in. what am i saying man?? maybe some of you wouldnt believe it but i wasnt myself the previous nite and yesterday morning. i also dont really know what is going on around me. i just feel as if i was possessed!! then somehow or rather i hear the whisper, some voice just travel into my ears saying: you are going to die soon yound lad. this really shocked me. i was so frightened. images of how i am going to die flood my mind. it was too much for me. for no reason i just sat down in front of my computer and tears just row down. i wonder why that tear row down? was it mine? or was it the one who was in me? someone is kinda of spiritual stuffs clouded me and i ponder deeper. at the same time i was talking to wayne and he was encouraging me. althought the things i wrote down was from the real me but the actions that i had wasnt. so lost and scared and i called my godpa. i told him how i was feeling and all i was going through. he prayed for me and i felt much better after that. i started singing praises to the Lord and i proclaim His promises now and then. i was back normal. i feel normal. it is indeed good to feel that i am back to myself again. no one 2 person sharing a brain! thank you Lord. thank you.
i guess that the devil is trying to get me down. things didnt just stopped there. got home super late last night and was scolded. the things that were came out from my parents mouth cut me so deep that i also weep.

am i a outcast of this family?
being treated like a nobody?
under the blankets i cry and weep.
i feel so depressed and feel so weak.
isnt there anyone who cares for me?
or am i just an abandon meek?
what have i done that cause my fall?
smashing down like a fraglie doll.
what can i do to make things better?
while i am still behaving in a Godly manner.

2002-11-06T08:19:00.000-08:00
everyone can view things in 2 different ways. we have the Godly way and the worldly way.
in a worldly way - i would say that i had a bad night yersterday. things were terrible and it doesnt seems to look good at all.
in a Godly way - praise be the Lord for i have many church prayer warriors who prayed for me and my family. than alot everyone, thank you GOD.
in a worldly way - today i had a depressing day. partly because i am still affected by what had happened yesterday. trying very hard to cheer myself up. went out with my godpa today and he bought me a pair of drumsticks. looks cool but still........ not very happy the whole day. why is it like that?
in a Godly way - alrite man!! great day. went out with my handsome godpa. so blessed. hehe, he bought me lunch and new pair of drumstick!!! yay!!! so happy. going to try it out tomorrow. yeah man!! problems free for everything is in God's hand!

which way would you prefer to view the life you are going through each day? is it the depressing worldly view or the full of joy Godly way? sometimes in life is hard to view things in a Godly way for things just seems so impossible for us to see in that way. but God is gracious and full of mercy. everything is in His hands and everything is in control. you just need a little faith to believe in Him. i am still learning. not every situation i can view things in a Godly way. for this i must admit and i know that i have to change!!! feeling abit depressed still, share with you my bo liao poem (keke~):

as the night comes and the world turns dark,
it seems that i am in a no one's ark.
fear strikes in and i feel so lost,
what have i done to bear this cost?
could it be that the all whole ground is haunted?
or am i just the only wanted?
why is it have to be me?
and who can bring me out of this salvery?
am i all alone in this fight?
or is there someone who can show me light?
bring me out of this torment and shame
and i shall honour you and give u fame.
O Lord please help me!
help me out of this pain and suffering!
Hallelujah and thank you Lord
for you are the only sorce of hope!!!

2002-11-05T03:58:00.000-08:00
somtimes in life, you know that you feel so weak and there seems to be nothing you can do to help in the situation that is infront of you, what would you do? things seems painless and yet created so much pain in you, what would you do? many times in life where you try to create something out of life but things just seems to be so meaningless, what would you do? there are times when we try to save or try to talk to those who we are close to but it doesnt seem to work at all, what would you do? many times and many things we have done and yet nothing is in progress, dont we feel tired? dont we feel like resting? dont we feel like giving up?
WHAT CAN WE REALLY DO???
we can ask God to help us. we can believe in God that He can and He will help us. God has done marvellous things in my life. i meet some problem recently but i will cling on to Him and i will put my trust fully on Him, for i know that He will never leave me and He will never forsake me. this time. thank you God.

for those who have prayer needs, feel free to tell me and i will pray for you. God will answer the prayer and He will do miracles in your life too. Just have to trust HIm and have faith in Him. can tell me through my email (link011@mail2eric.com) or call me at 90019462. take care always

2002-11-02T08:29:00.000-08:00
God is kind and gracious and wondful and loving. He has been showing all His love to me..feel so blessed....Lord i just wanna take this time to pray for a few of my frenz out there. may Your loving hands be upon them too.....Lord i wanna lift those who are in the University students. exams are still on and so i wanna pray that Your presence and strength be upon them. also for those taking theirs Os and As....may Your love and grace be with them as they are preparing it these few weeks..pray that you will remove their weaknesses and barriers in them. for Lord Your great love is everlasting...praise You....Lord i also wanna lift up one of my fren into Your loving hands..pray that You will watch over her and Your presence will be with her. allow her to feel that You are there and she is not fighting with those evil doers alone..for You are also with her. pray that You will watch her thru these dark weeks and that You will help her and bless her. soften her heart OLord..touch her Lord. help her and bless her......in Jesus name..AMEN!!

2002-10-29T04:46:00.001-08:00
is really being tiring but i am feeling happy today....I LEFT ONE LAST PAPER!!!..........Tax.............indeed a taxing subject....whahaz...wanna thank God for His constant care and presence that is always with me..wanna thank Him for giving strength when i feel weak, strength to study and to focus well. thank Him for the peace and comfort at times when i was feeling nervous....thank Him for the meals that He has provided me and thank Him for the times when He cover me with warmth when things juz look so cold everywhere...the ppl..the situations...the circumstances....thank Him for the wonderful and encouraging frenz and churchmates arnd me..who have been praying for me...wanna thank all of U!!! THANK YOU...

There are just so many things that we can thank the Lord for. i cant complete my list, i believe it will take pages and pages...even till this blog cant hold!..hahah wana really give thanks to all the things arnd me....hehe...wanna continue to fill myself with the joy and love of God...that others may also see it.......juz wanna take this time to wish all those who are taking their papers these few days....Good Luck and All the best...God is always with u.....also wanna wish those who will be taking their A and O lvl...Good Luck and All the Best too :)

2002-10-29T04:46:00.000-08:00
is really being tiring but i am feeling happy today....I LEFT ONE LAST PAPER!!!..........Tax.............indeed a taxing subject....whahaz...wanna thank God for His constant care and presence that is always with me..wanna thank Him for giving strength when i feel weak, strength to study and to focus well. thank Him for the peace and comfort at times when i was feeling nervous....thank Him for the meals that He has provided me and thank Him for the times when He cover me with warmth when things juz look so cold everywhere...the ppl..the situations...the circumstances....thank Him for the wonderful and encouraging frenz and churchmates arnd me..who have been praying for me...wanna thank all of U!!! THANK YOU...

There are just so many things that we can thank the Lord for. i cant complete my list, i believe it will take pages and pages...even till this blog cant hold!..hahah wana really give thanks to all the things arnd me....hehe...wanna continue to fill myself with the joy and love of God...that others may also see it.......juz wanna take this time to wish all those who are taking their papers these few days....Good Luck and All the best...God is always with u.....also wanna wish those who will be taking their A and O lvl...Good Luck and All the Best too :)

2002-10-26T07:37:00.000-07:00
hi people, 2 good news i wanna share with everyone. wayne and anne has reached their destination safely. anne went to indonesia to attend a wedding dinner and will be back in singapore on sunday. wayne is in taiwan now and he will be there for 3 months. he is doing great over there and God is with him always..(Amen~) we sms each other during the pass few hrs and he called me in the juz now. so surprised and glad to receive his call. i'm glad that things are going well and smooth for him over there. nothing change in him yet. heard some background sound when he called me.i was trying to hear what it was and discovered that it was WARCRAFT III. haha... remember how much time we have spent together during that period playing everynight till 2 - 4 am.now we are both separated but our bond will still be there.however there is bound to be a drastic change in the 2 of us. things will be so much different. is all God's perfect plan and timing, and it is going to be good :)

feeling tired due to early morning sleep. hehe..studied till i feel asleep. well, 3 more to go. i muz jia you and dong all the way. a few more days to freedom!!! whahaz(evil laughter)..keke~ gtg back to study now. you people out there take good care of yourself. dont get sick during this period. all work hard together..good luck and all the best!!! :)

2002-10-22T21:07:00.000-07:00
haha so long never write liao...sometimes i do feel that something i didnt do..hhmm..haha..is it my blog or is it some other things??? hehe..got so many things i wanna write abt..!!! kk first of all..wanna welcome joan, shuyi, peixuan into the Kingdom of God..they received Christ last sun!!! yay...hehe praise the Lord.....really glad to see them taking the step of faith accepting the Lord...Grow well my sisters.... :)
trying hard to study these few days..lol..started playing OZ..hha...tio tempted by anne...lol...toodz rite? haha...well fun game....wait a minute..let me tell u all something...hahah..i bought 2 micropets...whahaz....(what! boys cannot play such stuffs meh? *bleah*)...hehe...so farnie...cannot imagine it man...i bought micropets? haha..hehe...

went ytd evening for sun sch meeting....b4 that played drums...thanz rev stephen for ur tips..hhe i will continue to train harder...hhhmm...after the meeting met up with anne wayne and michelle...together with KL...we went for dinner...hehe..was a great meal..thx for the dinner rev stephen.....lallaa....so sian...exams coming..ok lah gtg and study leh..take care everyone..tataz

2002-10-18T09:29:00.000-07:00
didnt really have the mood to write for the past few days....wonder why too...lol...well..being playing KOF 2002 non-stop...hook on it? perhaps....hah..trying to cut down leh...was so surprise when i came to realise that i didnt play today!!!! cool...lol...being playing from morining to night since last sat to ytd, today didnt play..haha..feel so proud now....not becos i ctrl myself but becuz i was busy the whole day...went to visit a fren of mine in the hospital this morning with anne then chiong to sim lim to meet wayne....spent half a day there..wonder what did i do..lol....wayne sent his laptop there for service and anne was looking for her firewall software....i was doing nth and walking arnd with them...lol...later in the evening, meet up with sier, bowan, zhongfa, and....(special appearance).....REV.STEPHEN...lol...we went for dinner...a farewell dinner for wayne...sob sob...then we went to uncle kelvin's hse for cell grp..lol..actually go there for coffee and tea after the heavy dinner..whahahz!!!..lidat also can sia..go there eat fruits...got watermelon, honey dew...shiok sia!!...hahaa....

is being quite sometime since the last time i wrote my Exodus...wonder anyone still remembers it? haha..was encouraged by wayne today..and i decided to continue with it....though not many really understands wad i am trying to bring across..but i shall continue..can say is my passion?? who knows...lol....will continue writing..perhaps these few days bah? hehe....

juz b4 i go....i wanna share something tonite...sometimes...we ppl might wonder: are we insignificant or is it the ppl arnd u r not sensitive enuff?? well...i guess everyone is different...not everyone is as sensitive as u may think...i believe in terms of friendship, i dont think there is any of our friends we will term them as insiginificant...treasure everyone at sight..and spend some time with them.....u will discover many things :) nitez everyone

This is my story
This are my words
A little world of L|nK

2002-10-13T05:44:00.000-07:00
today is a happy day!!! hallelujah!!! wanna praise the Lord...there are many things in life that we can praise the Lord..so many thing....i can never finsih my list if i am to write down what i wanna thank Him...i can only say THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!!

Love is the theme for today's Bible Study, Youth fellowship session(2 pm to 4pm)....hehe....shared by our beautiful and sweet ger--->Arlene....muz say that she did a great job today c",)
hehe....understanding what is God's love...what God's love can do??...and also how we can show love to God............cool man...well...in fact God's love is everlasting...and He has done a marvellous thing today...wanna take this chance to praise You God....for................................................WanLing's salvation.......
welcome to the Kingdom of God :D

Looking at some many happening things arnd me....kinda spur me to go deeper and closer to Him....yeah!!...lol..hope to continue to hear and see my salvations...hehe..
haha...that is all for now...in case i go siao....lol....take care ppl :)

God bless U~

2002-10-10T23:23:00.000-07:00
hi all.....havent being doing my blog....kinda lazy?? haha..who knows man....wanna thank all who did my test...haha...though the results were...erm...lool...kidding..maybe is kinda lame qns that i had posted....so sorry..hha..anyway...felt much better today....after some struggles.......hhmm...these few days been great for the Lord has made it marvellous everyday :) wanna share something again...(boredoom)...lol :

would u wanna see the smile of the devil or the hands of God trying to reach u and pull out of the darkness?? recently....the devil has been hovering and whispering to me many many things...causing my days to be rather....... miserable.....well..have been talking to God too.....yup....sometimes ppl fall short of glory then they tend to look for excuses saying things like "i am a sinner..a human...not perfect...no choice...bo bian"....i find all these r lame excuses and lies to make ourselves feel less gulity...hope those out there who is going thru rainy days...look upon God....and light will shine thru all dark clouds...and u will be saved...the smile of the devil may be tempting...may appear to look good...but dun be decived..........stand in the truth and not sin....for the last laugh shall be us..the triumph side...not the devil!!!....is a struggle that all of us will go thru it...i am going thru it and i believe that with the Lord beside me..i will not fall into the devil's trap.....after all these trails......ppl will grow....ppl learn and grow...in terms of maturity and also spiritual maturity....i wanna grow too........take me and use me...O LORD...

2002-10-08T10:47:00.000-07:00
nitez falls....what am i feeling now? went out with anne and andy juz now......bought a few stuffs....nice meeting u andy :) cut down smoking too...hehe.....later in the nite met up with wayne and kelly....long time no see kelly leh...hehee....she is still as siao...got BF liao..muz be more gentle.... :P
went back home after that...feeling terrible...dunno y...lol....btw, congrats to u michelle...finally persuade ur mum..haha.....anyway..back to how i feel: terrible....sad......down.............................but i was wondering y..no one to turn to..no one to share....michelle and huimin....thanks for listening.....feeling depress.. i went for a cool bath..shiok!!!...haha..God spoke to me....and i felt great after the bath...everyone shld go for it man...prayer :) anything that we cant..let God to the handle it..let go - let GOD...hehhee...felt much better...

2002-10-06T20:47:00.000-07:00
hi morning to all...is a great morning...juz finished my QT(quiet time)..for those who might not know wad QT is......QT in simple...is a time when we spend with GOD..communicating with Him and hear what HE has to tell us...yup...something that i wanna share:

Depression may lead to sin....when we are depress or down..we tend to be bad-tempered...we tend to get irritated easily..we tend to lie to others...we tend to shout at others...we might have thoughts like," i am already so down leh...u all still come and make things worse for me!!!..who will truly understand how i feel!?!?!" Then the devil will come into the picture...he will pour anger in you..pour negative words and negative thinkings (such as, " i wanna die liao" or "what is the point of living?") into us.....we will start to quarrel with our love ones...we will start to feel very very depress and down.....this is SIN.... then what can we do???

Sometimes after we cool down, we will look back and have a view of what had happened. Some will feel bad...regret..... for hurting the love ones who have shown concern to us.....why did we do that ?? Short afflctions are also occuring...so what can we do??? Today in my QT...God told me something......juz four words:

Let go - Let GOD

yup....let go of our all burdens and sufferings and let God handle everything for us...many times we may think that we are capable in handling most stuffs ourselves and in our own way....but...that is not true...those who believe it...i named it as pride....pride is something that most of us have...and is time we shld humble ourselves and let God handle it for us...let God take control of the situation.....let not depression rule us but allowing the love of God to cover us......
i remember anne once shared with me and wayne...regarding conflicts at home...etc....then i will always say..if i were u i will give them back a 110%....that is what i do and i have been trying to do...but everytime i didnt complete my sentence..........110% patience ...with the love of God..i prayed for patience....though things are really not going well for me...but i thank God....praise u my Father....praise You....hallelujah

many times in life...we want to see things work in a way that we want it to be..we wanna hear things that will smooth of ears...we wanna things to be the way we planned..the way we forsee it.............why is it everything abt us???? pride??? haiz......lets look at things in a more larger perspective....not limiting the possibilities...for there are many possiblities that we can choose from.......not juz the way we want it to be........Let go - Let God

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2002-10-06T07:06:00.000-07:00
yup...great sunday...wonderful worship and sermon...hehe..then after games.....welcome xiao ying and joan...the 2 new comers .....hope u 2 enjoyed the games..wanna welcome anne too for joining us.....yup..after the afternoon youth games...we played basketball...hahha..drained sia.!!!...feeling so tired now....haha....sleeping soon bah.....having a very terrible headache now..cant think at all....hahaha....writing this blog with my will power...hahhaa......really hope to write more but am too weak to do so....lol..kidding....bo sim?? no lah!!....tired man...hehe..anyway...gd nite everyone :)

2002-10-05T10:26:00.000-07:00
hi ppl..is sunday leh..kinda excited...haha..is going to be great..is Sabbath day...yup i am going to rest soon..after my quiet time with GOD...hehe.....had a great sat....played drums....yeah!!!..haha..felt so happy..but physcially so tired....falling sick..hope not..though been having bad cough for more than a week.......yup...spirituallly happy in the LORD..sunday..looking forward to wad is going to happen in a few hours time...haha....a great session on praise and worship..then a wonderful sermon...plus cool fun games in the afternoon for the Youth...yay!!!..haha..may think that i am siao...hah...i am siao!!..siao for God!!!!!!!!!!! gd nite everyone..tataz

2002-10-04T18:52:00.000-07:00
morning to all...great sat morning......many good things are ahead of me.....i believe(crossing-fingers)..hehehe....met up with michelle and wayne ytd...to get michelle a webcam....got a warcraft 3 for Jinhang.....sob sob....he went back to Japan ytd nite....going to miss him again...take care my brother...may God's presence be with u always...........meet up with anne in the evening for a session on maths....transformation..i am kinda sux in that topic...haha....so sorry anne......then after that we juz chilled out at a nearby playground.....cool place...like her area very much......very near town......nice environment.....ah peks playing chess....ppl gathering at the Community Club watch TV......ppl chit chatting.......o man....how i long for one that is lidat.....simple life.....shiok!!!...but i know that the kind of simple life that i want might never come true.......lol.......going out soon....feeling kinda tired but....dun wish to stay at home....hehehe.....take care everyone......

2002-10-03T19:30:00.000-07:00
good morning to all...a new start each day....and today is a new day created by God......it is going to be wonderful and great...
went out woth anne ytd....main purpose: study.....but she didnt bring any study material so....hehe...in the end....shopping...bleah :P
thoughts flew pass my mind when i was on my way to town in then evening.....topic is on:

Peace and Love

Peace.....how long are we going to enjoy this peace? when i was walking, i saw kids playing, having wonderful time with their family....people fishing, cycling, laughing and playing around. My town seems so peacful in sight..but..i felt no peace within....WHY...kind of disturb by the feeling...so many unsaved in this world is what made me feel that there isnt peace???....God.....speak to me and talk to me...........................
is there really peace in this world???

Love.....am i born with love or born to love??? before i accepted Chris...i used to be someone who is lack of love..and love no one....but after my Saviour come into my life...i felt loved by HIM...was such a sweet feeling...and i started to love.....to love the people around me.....love my friends and family....then slowly through friends.... BGR....been thru one relationship but God was not in it...didnt turn out well in the end.....hehe...thought of trying to get into another one..but didnt manage to...lol..not attractive enough bah......then again i thought of trying again....(hardcore?? whahaz)...but i failed too.....(confirmation that i am not good enough bah?? :p ) people always think that i am not those serious kind of person..someone who is not firm at all....is it the truth or is it that they dont know me well enough?? haha is ok.... :)
Now..i think i have loss the confidence to love or to bulid a relationship...dont really interested in such stuffs or maybe i am not good in such stuffs??? maybe?? dont feel like thinking of it....too tired...maybe i am protective...i dont wish to be hurt anymore.......it is so so painful.....OUCH!!!......just wanna be someone who love the people around me...may the love of God be in me and shine through me.......
last sunday, i had a great talk with a very inspiring person in church...VK...ehehe....mature, stable, yandao wor...he was talking to me and i felt much better after the talk....he inspired me.....lol.......thanz alot VK

That is abt all that i wanna share.....hehe..thanz for readin c",)

2002-10-01T20:26:00.000-07:00
hi ppl...had skipped my blogs.....hehe..so sorry...been busy with projects.....hehe...forgot that i have a blog!!!...lol
things have been really cool and good things are coming in...praise the LORD!! ytd nite, when i got whole after a long dreadful day, i got 4 piece of good news.....heheh...first..we got the campsite for the sunday school kids camp!! yay!!.. it will be at punggol camp...be on the 2nd dec to the 4th of dec....hehehe
second good news....peixuan....heard that u wanna get a bible ah?? hhmm..not bad ah....good start....i try to get u one asap? :) hehe....thrid good news is anne...she asked me how to pray before meal..is a good start....hhhmm..feeling comfortable in HIM....hehe....cool ger!! :)
kk the last good news....whahahz.....so happy.....mirc channel #linjunjie......finally got Q...whahahz.....on children's day.......farnie sia....that is my own channel leh....hehehe....wayne....u better go and reg ur nick..hehe then i can grant u 499 access.. :P whahahaz...or maybe u come and plead me bah..keke~...kidding.....leaaving soon ah.....hhmm..22 oct is so near....wat to do sia.....gotto spend more quality time together dude....hehe.....many ppl are going to miss u man.....haiz...lol......God will be with you wayne.....take care c",)

The Exodus
Thunder were roaring and dark clouds started to gather.Everyone rushes home to seek for shelter and warmth.....raindrops fell from the sky.....it puourd for hours and hours....when will this rain stop?...the rain continued for a few days, and things dont seem to be going very well... thunder roared and screams heard....evil blood once again boils and haunted the footman....going crazy....he deicede to move to another town...hoping to see the round sun and feel its heat......

Evil blood....hhmmz....son of a devilious man.....Lucas Darkwood......carrying the same blood...the footman tries many ways to suppress this darkness within him...only the legendary 5 piece armour can save this footman...[The journey continues...]

2002-09-29T08:00:00.000-07:00
hi!!!.....tiring day!!....the kids r really powerful.....energertic and super violent......they r so into wrestling!!!...wat WWF....WWE......all the stunts....wat crossline....ankle lock.....etc........DRAINED by them all man!!!!....we brought them to the Mac to eat....had a great time there....feel so happy to be blessed with the kids amongst us.....hehehe.....thx Lord....for indeed they r really wonderful kids....love them very much.... c",)

in the evening after cell grp...together with wayne...went to meet anne....went to simlim square..wayne bought a black color digital cam...looks kinda cool dude!!!....lol....however, i was too tired to do anything....too drained and my cough is making all my conditions worse...however we had a great dinner.....thx anne for the dinner....felt much better after the meal...

juz bathed...going to study soon...u ppl out there take care...God bless u~

2002-09-28T07:55:00.000-07:00
hi ppl...went out with wayne in the afternoon in search for new webcam...he bought a digital cam...and a web cam.....hmm....i mean is 2 in 1.....sounds pretty cool.....quite cheap.....280 bucks.....good bargain too..but he doesnt seems to like it at all...dun be sad wayne...yup......quite tiring..is going to be along day tomolo...teaching in sun sch tomolo.....celebrating with the kids too.......for oct 1......yes!!!!!....children's day...hhe.....got a new Gamecube game...looks kinda fun and interesting.....Animal Crossing....think that is abt it bah....hehehe.....going to bed early tonite too......hehe..anyway....u ppl out there....take care and enjoy
:)

The Exodus
Glad and happy he was one....feeling great, the footman starts to travel.......he was looking for a town where he can settle himself....hope that he would be able to make it before night falls........
by late evening he reached a town called Mael's Town....the footman tries to look for a place to stay....but it didnt took it long for that....there was a inn in the town...and he stayed there.....finally he had a good nite rest in the inn..after the long struggle in the Dark shrine.....so wat is he going to next?? will he stay in Mael's town and settled there or is he going to look for new adventures???......while...on the other side of the world...lies the evil doings.........[the journey continues...]

2002-09-26T22:28:00.000-07:00
Good afternoon.....raining heavily............gloomy friday..........sad???? hhmzz....later got test...still studying and rushing thru.......kinda confusiing..wad to do?? sch life....lol....anyway wanna take this chance to thank Huimin for introducing me the song "STAY THE SAME" by joey McIntye...hehe...thanx min c",)

what a day.......what is God doing now?? what is HE thinking of?? what does HE want me to do?? what are HIS plans for me?? what is the point of expressing my feelings and thoughts ....The Exodus??? HAIZ....

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2002-09-26T09:44:00.000-07:00
A bad thursday thru out....feeling so vexed...all abt accpac......this printer down..that folder failure...all the probs!!!!...aarrgghh!!...cant print...post journal cant be seen..wonder y...but aiya....who cares liao...no time to redo everything again.......gotto hand in watever i have......no choice......yup....cough worsen...panting like a bull.....headache and pain in lungs(due to coughing too hard)........tomolo still got costing test at 5pm....haiz....problems and problems have been flooding in non-stop for the past couple of days....life.....what a world....though these r all minor temporary afflictions..but has been affecting me......hhhmmz...need to continue to pray and hope that i have the strength and wisdom to deal with the things bothering me etc............God...

Wanna take this time to apologise to everyone...dun think many understand exodus......exodus is juz my own thinkings and feelings....that i decided to express out...it may sound kinda boring...but maybe..it is juz for my own references.....not all will know what i think and how i feel...these r juz some deep down thoughts and feeling that i have gone thru b4, happening presently and also may happen in future......mixing altogether like rojak.....haha......anyway..ignore it if u dun understand...sorry...

Thanz

2002-09-25T08:35:00.000-07:00
hi all........felt sooooo sleepy in sch today....had a presentation....so crap!!!!....dunno wat to say.....so lost of words...jialat sia..lol.....

Meet up with aNne for dinner in bugis.....was planning to meet up to study together but in the end...we ended up in the arcade to play....remember the ball game that i mention the other time?? need to get 30 balls......YES!!!...we finally made it...over 30 balls!!!....hahaha.....so happy....was our last 2 tokens...feeling so nervous when inserting the last coin.....lol.....but who knows...haha..we won.........it has been quite some time since i felt this way.....used to play in arcade games....win challengers..but not as thrilled as this....thanz aNne...hope u enjoyed the day :)

The Exodus
Reaching out...towards the light source......the footman was overjoyed....he saw daylight, he saw new hopes, he sense a fresh new start in his life.....he saw a fountain and sat beside it......resting.....cuts were healed and bruises were all gone...the footman regained all his energy..and began to explore this new world....this bright new world......but little did he expect.....that darkness will soon strike him again...danger awaits the young footman.......[the journey continues...]

2002-09-24T11:36:00.000-07:00
A very very good morning to all of u....bet most of u are sleeping now...hehehe.......haiz....y am i still awake???
haiz.....bo bian...have to do my Financial international project....gotto rush thru the powerpt....doing a presentation......o man...have to wear formal...bet i look damn stupid in it.....lolz.....anyway....bad day yesterday(tues)...hope today...will be better....*yawn*...gotto sleep soon.....panda eyes is becoming more and more obvious..............very very tired.......zZz...

2002-09-23T20:24:00.000-07:00
Hiya morning....feeling much better after a wonderful nite rest......hope everyone will have a great day ahead for this is the day that the LORD has made...we will rejoice and be glad in it...Amen!!!

The Exodus
Hoping to see a breakthrough, the young footman stood up and carried all his inventory and food...he began his search...hoping to find a way out of this cold darkness.....he prayed as he walks.....prayed that he will see light soon......as he walks, obstacles came along the way...... boulders blocking passage, thorns slashed the footman.....fresh red blood flowing down from the cuts .......he was hurt and bruises were all over......................
he was feeling weak.....vision started to become blur...juz as his eyes were closing...he saw light......"what is that" he asked....although he is not very sure what it is....but somehow the light gave him a very nice feeling....and so....the footman walks towards the light source........[the journey continues...]

2002-09-23T08:15:00.000-07:00
hi all....monday blues today ya.....bad start this morning.....was so reluctant to wake up.....have no choice but to force myself to get off the bed.........not much to write today...all that i wanna express has been posted.....The Exodus...wanna apologise....cuz it sound kinda boring and meaningless...lol...wonder y i post that too...whahaz...........another 45 mins more to 12 midnight.......juz wanna hope that things will turn better at the end of the day......hhmm...what will happen??...lets wait for a miracle...hehhee.....
thx for reading my blog..and The Exodus..

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This are my words
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2002-09-23T05:57:00.000-07:00
The Exodus
Night falls...feeling cold and weak...the footman found some food, but he was so tired and weak that he had no appetite to eat anything..........the footman sat down and start to think about the past......how he tried to save those inncocent pleasant who came asking for his help......but.....one by one...they left the footman....
Tears came rolling down his rough cheek. Who can now save him??? All alone.......that was how he felt.............
When will there be light???...........[the journey continues...]

2002-09-22T22:20:00.000-07:00
The Exodus
Is slience taking over the innocent soul, or is there a drastic change due to the pressures around?...Mazes after maze is what the small footman sees..."where is the exit?" he asked.....No one is around....all alone in this dark summit.....[the journey continues...]

2002-09-22T08:25:00.000-07:00
hi all....had a wonderful day...in church and also during the youth..... :)
Today we had our prayer meeting for youth, felt so much and was so glad...God showed me what is my burden that is in my heart for so long.......i am going to work towards it!!!! Amen!!!
We had a new comer in youth today....wanna welcome aNne for joining us....the youthful youths of Westside Anglican Church.....hehehehe :)

After the prayer meeting, ME....wayne...aNne and quifen went to bugis!!!....lol...really had fun there..especially during the arcade....ONE MORE BALL (darn!!!)

*sigh*

ME felt alot today...juz wanna take this time to share little my my own world:
There are many people in this world who are really very strong....and some....act strong...and others...not strong at all...............what do we look upon in life? how do we feel each day? what are our feelings to certain things..towards certain people??? is it better to share our problems/obstacles with people who are close to us, or keeping all things to urself and to act strong??? When the world dun look upon u at all......(who cares abt you???)....what shall we do??? who can we turn to???
O God.....there are so many people who are feeling this way...so many people who are lost...........................
hope that all this people will be able to find light in this darkness...hope that their life will be change and not they will not cry everynite....feeling so lost so lonely..so cold................

This is my story...

2002-09-21T10:20:00.000-07:00
Praise to be the Lord!!! Indeed a very good day....for this is the day that the Lord has made and we will rejoice and be glad at it... :D

went back to oasis room........(WAC...still remember that place??).....lol.....went there to help up in shifting all the chairs and belongings of the church. A few strong uncles(lao tang yi chuang)...hehe and a few very strong(lian qing you wei) youths.......and that includes ME(muz be kidding)...wayne...jinhang......gilbert and jonathan....cool :)

We were so mad and siao for the Lord today.....we composed a HOKKIEN CHRISTIAN RAP....hahaha.....SUPER COOL.....after the shifting, we went for coffee break then i went down to St. Andrew Cathedral...play abit of drums and went window shopping with jonathan...rushes back to jurong point againto meet jinhang and wayne(againzZ???) and sier....bought a new christian album by MATT REDMAN...very very good album...thanx for the recommendation guys :)

The four of us went to CIty Harvest and really enjoyed our time there.....very good sermon by Rev.Kong Hee on FAITH!!! It really touches the four of us and indeed the Lord has spoke and touched us.....we will continue to excerise our FAITH!! :D
In the evening, after the sermon in City Harvest, we chiong cab down to sier's church..spend our nite there....cool....haha..went to three churches today...is really a cool experience...though grastric pain strikes all of us...but our love for God and the passion has overwhelmed it..praise the LORD!!!

Really enjoyed my day...Zhong Qiu JIE...indeed i have spent it with my dearest person in my life....GOD.....indeed my most fruitful Mooncake festival....thank you LORD.......thank you..........

hope that all those who had read my blog and even to those who didnt read my blog....may feel the love that God has installed for u ...HE is waiting for u....more than 2000yrs ago...so wad r u waiting for???

2002-09-20T09:57:00.000-07:00
Hi everyone :)

didnt do much today...wasnt feeling well and stayed at home....played warcraft 3 with wayne (as usual)....went to my grandma's hse to deliver some mooncakes to her...long time never see her, but she is still as warm as ever :) i love u grandma....muz take care of urself ah...keke~

sad day..planning to go out to watch movie.....but in the i cant make it...sorry wayne...sorry jinhang...but glad that we met up eventually at then pasa malam(is this the rite spelling?? nahz!!!)...hehe....

yAwNzZzzz!!!

have to rush my project and to send email to my grp leader....wonder what time will i be able to sleep..still feeling a bit giddy(darn!!!)....anyway....hope u ppl out there take good care of urself!!!..try not to fall sick..exams r arnd the corner....yuppies :) take care always.......

2002-09-19T09:15:00.000-07:00
yoz...had a great day!!! wad abt u ppl??? meet up with aNne and wayne(ukyoboy) for dinner at sakae sushi.....what a wonderful meal we had....spent quality time sharing and chatting...was really fun!!! forget to take neo print....everyone is too shy to suggest....pengZ...lol.....went to the arcade, didnt expect aNne is so pRo in Time Crisis II.....L|nK cannot make it when it comes to shooting games..haiz....muz go and train more if not next time army siao liao..whahaz...thanz aNne and thanz wayne...for the nitezZz....

Wayne is on air live in 933....cool dude....fantastic sia...hehe..proud of u....continue to jia you wor...keke~ :)

Wanna take this chance to thank God for His healing if not i might still be sick today....hehee....also i wanna pray specially for aNne's grandma and cousin...hope that they will recover soon...

aNne-----> go for bloodtest asap...dun be scared...there isnt anything much to be scare..muz jia you too!!! :)

Huimin---> i seriously feel that u r growing very well...keep up the good work and continue to do HIS work and HE will watch over u.....

2002-09-18T09:55:00.000-07:00
HI...finally created one...hehe thanx a lot aNne...for guiding me thru the whole thingy...xie xie ni...

Recently, many things are happening around my life. i heard alot from frenz who shared etc. Alhougth i have my own problems, i realise that mine is juz a minor problem to them.......used to have a dream: "hope that everyone will be happy"...i realise that it is not easy. What can i do to help them? What can i do, to regain and to claim back the smile that they used to have?

Anyway, guess i am thinking too much...lol....feeling very very tired and stress these few days...projects flooding me...been having little sleep...feeling so weak...having slight fever now...guess i shall try not to exceed the 3am mark..hehe~

Take carez ppl...thx for spending time to read... :)